it's been a while, a long while. i guess the chaotic pace of my work and other distractions - didn't help either.
i was also going through a writer's block. i stared for hours on this screen, trying to pen my thoughts but i couldn't.
not too long ago, i typed in Blogger's URL, but i was blocked. couldn't figure out why. since i have nothing i wanted to update, i gave up trying to log in.
friends of this blog started writing me, asking me if i am ever going to blog again. everywhere i turn, someone will remind me of Hotel Solace.
and i have to say -- i am indeed very touched. i am sorry i have been gone for so long. i do want so much to touch lives again, and i hope i can still remember how to do it.
i have retreated into a space that doesn't need me to feel that much -- and that helped brought some stability and sanity back into my otherwise dysfunctional life. for a while, this blog has been that hotel solace for me, and many others. but the emotions that checked in here daily were mostly raw, and very, very real. i needed a solace of my own and i found it interestingly, by not blogging.
but it feels good ...to be back.
it feels wonderful to know u guys are still checking in.
and it feels liberating to be able to crack the stupid privacy code that's preventing me from logging into blogger.
and yes, i do miss you too.
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why is it so
when things go wrong
the burden to bear is always mine
and when i've done right
you, not me
are always the one who shine
maybe i am easy
maybe i just don't mind
but maybe, just maybe
you think i'd be fine
why does one think
when friendship ends
they play no part
in the tragedy
and when pain sets in
it's all me
who caused all the misery
maybe i am innocent
maybe i am too nice
maybe, just maybe
i don't look like the selfish kind
enough is enough
betrayal is finite
take your curses
and beat it
get the hell outta my life
your vile intentions
your malicious lies
enough is enough
good riddance
and that is
my last goodbye